Went to second CMA meeting tonight, at Lambda South. But to backtrack a bit - yesterday was my first meeting. About a dozen and a half guys; mostly my age (50ish), with a few younger. Trying hard to fight the habit of checking out the cute ones.

While I introduced myself I said nothing else during this meeting. As the people around the room shared their stories (family was the topic) I was surprised at how many people mentioned that they came from families where everyone, parents and siblings, used drugs and alcohol. A few people greeted me, especially after they heard that it was my first meeting, and one person named Phillip gave me his card in case I needed to talk to someone.

Tonight was much the same as last night. I had hoped to be approached by others to get to know people in the group; I really would like to start making friends, but I can see that I need to be the one to make the first move. More people tonight; also a speaker (Trevor?) who had a great share about his successes and relapses. I shared a synopsis of my tale; didn't feel very articulate but wanted to be a part of things; I think to maybe help in meeting people. Got a temporary sponsor tonight, Jose. He seems nice, but he has been at both of the meetings I've been to so I don't know if just seeing him and chatting on a daily basis takes the place of phone calls. Also got a new person packet tonight. Read through it. I like the way most things are approached in the literature. I don't think that the atheist thing will be too much of a problem; and their approach is pretty practical and makes sense. I can also start to see how some of my other issues are tied into the drug thing.

A Journey to Sobriety

Well, here goes nothing. This is a blog to chronicle the ups and downs of leaving behind a crystal meth habit of more than twelve years.